Two young men lost their lives in the crash.

But in newly surfaced jailhouse phone calls, Mackenzie Shirilla appeared consumed by another loss: the life she feared she might never get back.

The Ohio woman convicted of murdering Dominic Russo and Davion Flanagan in a 2022 high-speed crash is facing renewed public anger after recorded calls from behind bars revealed her private fears about prison, parole, and the future she believes was taken from her.

In one call obtained by PEOPLE, Shirilla worried that by the time she is released, she would be too old to have children. The remark quickly drew outrage because Russo and Flanagan, both killed in the crash, will never have any future at all. PEOPLE reported that Shirilla is serving two concurrent sentences of 15 years to life and may be eligible for parole in 2037.

The resurfaced audio comes as Shirilla’s case has returned to national attention following Netflix’s documentary The Crash. Shirilla was 17 when she drove a Toyota Camry into a brick building in Strongsville, Ohio, killing Russo, her boyfriend, and Flanagan, their friend. Prosecutors argued she deliberately accelerated to nearly 100 mph and did not brake before impact.

The calls have become explosive because they show a side of Shirilla the public did not hear in court: frightened, defensive, and intensely focused on what prison would mean for her own life.

In another jail call reported by PEOPLE, Shirilla referred to herself as the “third victim” of the crash. That phrase has angered many observers because the court concluded she was not merely another victim of a tragedy, but the person responsible for the deaths of two passengers in her car.

Other calls have raised even more questions. PEOPLE and Entertainment Weekly reported that Shirilla and her mother used a coded or “secret” language during some jail conversations, which prosecutors later decoded and used during trial. In one reported exchange, Shirilla allegedly discussed saying she had suffered a seizure, a claim prosecutors viewed as important because the defense argued she may have blacked out.

For the families of Dominic Russo and Davion Flanagan, the renewed attention is painful. The crash ended two lives instantly. Russo and Flanagan will never grow older, have children, build careers, or return home to their families.

That is why Shirilla’s complaint about her future has landed so harshly.

To her supporters, the calls may sound like the panic of a young woman facing a lifetime behind bars. To the victims’ families, they may sound like a convicted killer grieving the consequences for herself more than the lives she took.

The court’s conclusion remains unchanged.

Shirilla was convicted of multiple charges, including murder. Her two life sentences are being served concurrently, meaning her first possible parole opportunity is in 2037.

But the jailhouse calls have now reshaped the public conversation around her remorse.

They do not change the verdict.

They do not bring back Dominic Russo or Davion Flanagan.

But they reveal why, years after the crash, the case still provokes such outrage: because while two families are mourning sons who lost everything, Mackenzie Shirilla was heard mourning the future she may never get to live.